PROMISE LAND: People living life.

Dear Diary,

In the same vein? That's been my phrase for the past week. It popped into my head when we were losing 20-3 at the top of the second inning in intramural softball. D Rek pitched a strike and I rallied "eyyyy there ya  go number trece, in the same vein now whattdaya say?" It was odd. But I liked how it came out. I said it about thirty other times throughout the next few innings. I also imparted some "it never always gets worse" knowledge on my team. I don't think anybody else laughed besides me. I later struck out when I was up to bat. In slowpitch softball. Yeah, Fiji's pitcher threw a wicked 9-foot arc.

Couple of pitches

I swear I was a star shortstop in 4th grade. I guess I'll stick to ultramarathons now in my late, late age of 21.

Occasionally I feel 40.

Anywho, I LOVE PROMISE LAND. In fact, I just remembered that it is indeed the only ultramarathon I've ever raced more than once. The atmosphere is unbeatable--everybody camps out in a glorious field Friday night, bonfire, 530am start, big climbs, a gnarly decent, fellowship and burgers after the race. Those parts were what made this weekend fun.

The week before Chrissy and I ran the Bel Monte 25k which was FAST and felt great to push limits in a different way. We stayed at Bob's house Friday night (thanks Bob!) and woke up at a lovely 5am. The ~16.5 mi run was a neat out and back. I ran with a few dudes for the first half, then took off the second half. It was like running in an actual "chase pack." It was good to actually race people instead of a clock or previous time. A good fast medium-long run in and a podium finish, my confidence was boosted for the Promise Land.

Down down down down the mountain

Chrissy won!

ONWARD. After Bel Monte I decided I guess it'd be a good time to rest and "taper"...PL was only a week away! So I only did 10/6/1/4/2mi the days leading up to PL, which constitutes as rest for me lately I guess. My legs felt leaden but in repair mode. I could literally feel them mending themselves whenever I was lying down. Twitch twitch. Doing exactly what tapering is supposed to do. But you're supposed to feel a "pop" when your tapering...perhaps I need more than a one-week taper for actual end-of-season races. Learning myself and my body more and more. Good stuff! I got realllly excited to race on Monday in my room. Like to the point of adrenaline. Woah there. Five days away.

Come Friday I was only half my happy-go-lucky self. I wasn't necessarily focused but I was certainly ready to start running and not waste any energy being all bubbly at the pre-race meeting. I was reluctant to do much socializing and I hit the tent early. Which kind of sucks because the whole ultra-family was there. But as it is a Horton race, I felt the need to preform my best, and so with self-imposed pressure, I didn't seem that fun.

An early 420am alarm and oatmeal came. Wyatt and I blared the obligatory pre-race tunes and got to the start line on time (unlike last year when I woke up with 30 mins before the start and forgot all my gus; different vein). We were soon off. So it began.

I made sure I was in the front of the start line this time. Top 10 on my mind. I ALWAYS, unintentionally, start slow and work my way through the field, but with a field this stacked of good runners I thought I'd try to go out with the front-guys and see what happens (note: Glove said it correctly, "The number of guys vying for the win wasn't as deep as last year, but the number of good solid runners [us] after the top spots was huge, like 20 or 30.) So the top guys formed a pack of seven or eight and ran about ten yards ahead of a chase pack of maybe 5 of us. It was really neat. Actually a pack of leaders then a pack of chase-guys. It only lasted a mile though, naturally with the big climb right off the bat. I let the front guys go and hiked the steep uppermost part of the climb, then kind of ran alone till we hit the white oak trail. I think that's called the white oak trail?

I dislike the white oak trail. It's pretty, but it's douchegrade and just meanders along and adds miles. Once it opens up into the old grassy road I guess I started to slow, or everybody else started to run. Like really run. I felt like I was running with a marathon stride, not ultra stride, and hoards of people were passing me. Like 20 people passed me. I got pissed. "I know basically everybody vying for the top 15 spots, and these people aren't them. Who the heck are these people. Eager beavers, you're all just going to die later." Glove and I verbally told each other, quite loudly around the folks, that we were going to catch them all up the falls. I wasn't happy and I was being a passive-aggressive dick to  the rest of the field who was just trying to have a good time. And for that I wasn't happy with myself. My damn emotional history was getting the best of me. THESE THINGS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE FUN....This issue of races not being fun has been with me more and more steadily since I've started to run fast(er) and trying to "race" instead of just run. Sometimes I wish I was a midpacker who never wears a watch or looks at freaking ultrasignup.

So I caught up to Dmack and Glove and we walked a good bit of the douchegrade that is white oak trail. I knew I was mad, and told myself that I can't do anything about the other people, so I didn't stay mad long. I just got bored. I finally reached the Parkway and the dirt road and downhill, and started running because I wanted to be alone (Glove and Dmack, they had stopped for water at a spring a tad before the parkway and I didn't; the first aid station was not set up). I hit sunset fields and only ate a couple oranges then started to BOOK the DARKSIDE.

I LOVE THE DARKSIDE. The course doesn't require attention until the darkside because you immediately have a steep, ROCKY, decent after sunset fields. I flew and loved it. I was with freshman Darren (dudes fast!) and was starting to enjoy the race, running with a friend and nobody else. We came into Cornelius Creek AS and I verbally stated that the previous section was great. Positive reinforcement. Potatoes hit the spot. Darren was filling his pack and I bolted off down the road, which I like because you can really run. I was alone and enjoying the scenery and happy. Funny how things turn around in such a short period of time.

I eventually caught up with Matt Bugin and we ran a few miles together back to Cornelius Creek. He's always very very solid, so I knew I was in a better spot when I was with him. He's gonna rock MMT 100 in a couple weeks (as is Joe Dudak!). Matt remarked that he considers the bottom of the falls the end of the race because "nobody I know can run up the whole falls." I was feeling pretty solid, and I was looking forward to what I could do on the climb.

I ran Apple Orchard Falls in ~42:30 and passed eight people. Stoke.

Short and consistent strides, I started grooving and digging. LOVE that climb proper. Seeing people is always good, then passing people is always great. Jared, a friend from the first time I witnessed MMTR, remarked that top-10 was close when I started the climb. Hm....At SSfields I passed a man to hop into sixth place. What? Where did everybody go? Heck yes. TOP TEN?! I felt heroic surprising Tammy at SSfields. Earlier at the same AS she remarked I didn't sound too good, and now three hours later I was cooking. Just seeing her made me smile inside. I hope I smiled outwardly, but who knows, I was working. Dmacks girlfriend flawlessly handed me my other bottle (truly flawless, thank you!). Five miles to go, all downhill. Let's go. I passed a man before the final gravel road. When he finished I learned he ran more than 25 miles with a BROKEN RIB. TOUGH TOUGH TOUGH. Mad respect.

Feeling heroic. Photo: Beth Minnick

I finished 5th! 5:11:26, only a minute faster than last year. In the same vein. Haha.

I was surprised. I was shooting for 5:10, maybe 5:05, and loosely top 10. I thought I was going to run a 5:05 and get 15th place, but that didn't happen. I'm a much better runner than I was this time last year, so I was surprised I didn't run faster, but no complaints!

One of the first things out of my mouth was "that wasn't very fun."
Three hours later I was saying, "That was so fun."
The devil and god are raging inside me.

HOKIES CRUSHED IT.
LIKE, REALLY CRUSHED IT.
We had fourteen hokies run. I think maybe even a couple more than that. Last year it seemed like it was just glove, rachel, dmack and myself. And now we have so many people! It's great.
Jordy finished 9th, Glove finished 10th, FRESHMAN Darren 12th, FRESHMAN Steve 15th, Earp and Mike Jones in the 30s. Incredible. We really have developed something in our little ultra team here in Blacksburg. I'm proud of everybody.

What's next? Who knows. I'm debating a 50k or 50mi for the sake of a PR just to put something down fast. Then it's 100% GRINDSTONE training. I'm really looking forward to that because it's just run as much as you can (well, it's a lot more than that, but that's how I'm approaching it). I was just kind of aimlessly running highish mile weeks before promise land, topping out at 90, just for the sake of running. I enjoy the constant training.

The post race was so enjoyable. Hearing how everybody did, catching up with friends I only see at races, sitting in the sun, eating, nothing else really beats that. I had one clear thought:

Here, people are living life. 

5 hokies in the top 15!! 

TEAM!!!!

Judgement--DON'T DO IT!

A quick little blurb about what's been on my mind the past few hours that I think is useful to pen.

Judgement. I think it's inherent to us humans on some degree, to judge other people, "I'm better than them/ they're wearing that?/ Drinking that?/ That persons slow/ Your major is sooo difficult..." Stuff like that. But I think it's probably one of the most unhealthy things us humans can do. What does judgement accomplish? A little ego-boost? If that's the case, hurting someones feelings (by actually verbally judging) is not worth a little ego boost. And internal judgement has to have some kind of negative pessimistic narcissistic fault in the brain. I'm no full-blown scientist or nothin'.

Anyway. This morning I hopped in the Xenia Marathon (small, middle of nowhere farmland Ohio) as a training run, doing nothing special in preparation. I was a little burnt out of Tech/trail life, so I went home for the weekend. I was planning on doing 22 around my neighborhood, but Xenia was only an hour away and running long in Ohio is much easier with people. My decision was spontaneous and I was actually pretty excited and got brief pre-"race" nerves before the start line. The marathon scene is not my usual.

So within the first mile, I ran up to some 30-something year old and asked, "Hey man, what's the name of this race?" (I didn't know the name of the marathon...it never said on the website. I thought it was OHRRA or something but I was curious so I asked). The guy gave me an odd look (understandably), and said "Xenia Marathon. X-E-N-I-A." I responded, "Cool, thanks man." And ran off a bit ahead of him. Like five yards ahead of him. And I heard him laugh out loud and remark to his friend "This kid thinks this is a mile fun run, hahahaha." He probably thought he'd pass me in two miles. He didn't pass me at all.

I kind of smiled and ran ahead. But his remark kept creeping back into my head. This dude doesn't know me. He doesn't know I've run 10 Ultras, that a marathon is a "fun run" for me, and that I'm ending an 80 mile training week. I'm no better than this man, but his comment irked me.

I ended up having a great time at the race, talking to one dude in particular who was trying to qualify for boston, saying positive things to people along the course, and smiling. Having no time goals whatsoever made me enjoy the race. I was gonna pick up headphones but opted not to because I was having FUN at a race. It was much more FUN than the DEATH RACE. It was hot an I happily ran shirtless. Marathoning is certainly different than ultraing, and still certainly hard. It's no better than ultrarunning. Just different. And I enjoyed switching my routine up.

I met an older man at 50sforyomomma race in Ohio last May. He said, "One thing I've learned over the years is to stop caring about what other people are doing during a race. Don't judge anybody. You don't know if they're in the middle of a 100 mile week, or if their spouse just died, or if they're completely tapered and overly obsessed."

So. Don't judge people. At least catch yourself and correct yourself when you do. Something I work on.

Mom and Pops came!

Got to see a lifelong friend I grew up with--Eric!